Sick
I am currently both physically and mentally ill.
Physically, I have a vile bug devouring my insides. My head is pounding, my noise is dripping a viscous fluid with its own evil personality, which has decided to use my throat for an amusement park. My throat feels like I swallowed a rabid porcupine. My muscles are fine, if by fine you mean rubberbands dipped in liquid nitogren and hit with a hammer.
Mentally, I am a blank. I’ve got nothing. I have so many things to do; write a thesis, apply for other jobs, try to market my company, deal with bills, a kid who is going into surgery that costs 50K, another who is now a pre-teen. I know that the secret to this and just pick one, get it done, move on to the next one.
I think my first task should be the job. I can’t deal with retail anymore, I truly believe that I am beyond this now. I have five positions that I am applying for at the Seattle Times, most are non-reporting, but there is a biotech reporter position that I am hoping for. When this is done, then I NEED to tackle the thesis, I only have this year to finish it. Then I can look at the future. But not now. Now I need to focus, something which has been and continues to elude me.
[tags] life-sucks [/tags]